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Name: Damien

Gender: Male

Age: 17

Race: human

Occupation: student

Weapon: Sword

Class: swordsman

Hair: Black

Eyes: Brown

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Personality: Very soft and gentle towards living things that aren't scum. Works hard to make his own living. Has never really thought about girls, but is definately not gay.

History: Lives at home with his parents. He practices his swordsman skills in the family dojo. He's never had to use his skills for fighting. He doesn't really feel any special connection with his family. He's made a deal with his parents that when he graduates high school, he can do whatever he wants with his life.

Name: Kana Takeru

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Age: 17

race: human

Height 5'4.5''

weight: 114 Ibs

hair: long (middle of back), brown

eyes: brown

occupation: high school student 2nd year

personality: has a big heart, kinda slow sometimes, but really smart. She believes that no one is born cruel or with an angry heart. Wants to make everyone happy and is eager to please. IS NOT A GOODY GOODY

History: When Kana was young, her father died from a cold that got worse and worse. She has no memory of him, but she remembers that her mother spoke very fondly of him. She was raised a happy child and had no problems growing up. In her first year of high school, her mother was in a terrible accident and died in the hospital. Now, she goes on living her life the way she thinks her mother would want her to. Happily. She uses the advice her mother had given her while she was still alive to get her through troubled times. And she tries to have no regrets.


I'll try to draw a picture later!

i'm going to the Chicago showing of Dir en grey on Feb. 14th . . . go me

So.
My life.

A long while ago i tried out for the musical Ragtime and i got in. go me, but i also made call backs for one of the leads: Evelyn. Evelyn is the most beautiful woman in america she lives for dancing and singing; Vaudeville. I so wanted to be Evelyn, but unfortunately when i checked the cast list, Molly Rood got the part. I was so devestated. I cried a lot.

THEN, i accepted the fact that i was not evelyn and moved on. Everything was perfectly fine, UNTIL Molly began to lose her voice. it was in really bad shape, but now it's kinda coming back and our directer, Mr.Mayo, decided to make me the understudy where i learn all of her parts, everything she does just in case she loses her voice and her music directer thinks that it is a good possiblitly that she may not last throughout all three shows.

i kinda really didn't want to be her understudy because that was a role that i really, really wanted and the fact that i have to learn all of her parts and possibly do NOTHING with them if she has her voice. Which is hurtful becuse it sucks. just sucks.

sometimes i have really mean thoughts and hope that she doesn't get her voice back because i really want to do it, but at the same time i feel bad for her because she has been working hard for the past 2 months on this role and if she loses her voice, she's useless.

so, i have these back and forth feelings about, will i get to do it? will i not get to do it? All that is based on what people have told me. From the very start, everyone has believed that i am the better evelyn. Then i have other people saying," oh i think she'll be fine." BLAH!

Today, my music teacher, Mr.Heise, pulled me into the choir room to teach me all of evelyn's singing parts. Then afterwards i ended up telling him how crappy i felt about being the understudy and he told me that he thinks that I am a great person because even though i am feeling the way i do about being the under study, i am still doing it even with the pain it's causing me. He said that he think's i'm awsome and that that shows i have great character.

he also said that when getting the role for evelyn, it really came down to the little stuff like dizyness and the fact that she had blonde hair and i have red. Mr.Mayo told me that they were putting a red wig on Molly because she didn't have red hair. (which would look REALLY bad on her, but everyone loves it on me and i already have red hair. Mr.Heise said that he knew from the very beginning that i could have been evelyn, but it all came down to the little stuff.

so technically, i am the better evelyn, but will i be able to show everyone? i don't know but it makes me want to cry when i think about it too much and it's hard not to. This is really important to me. I want to pursue a career in music; i want to prove myself.

is it selfish to want nice and good things or am i just selfish?

my friends say i'm human, but sometimes i just feel plain selfish, as if i'm asking for too much because i hardly ever get what i want.